I’ve been haunted by a ghost every night since you left.
He shows up only when my thoughts have quieted.
He looks like possibility, and sounds just like you.
You were rough around the edges, and especially dismissive.
I found your polo shirts repetitive, and your “nice guy” facade hard to swallow.
You took up all of the space in the room with your obnoxious laugh.
Your obnoxious laugh…
though only known to my ears for a brief stint, it’s taken-up permanent residence in my mind and haunts my moments of solitude.
To drown it out, I think about how the sun touches down on the earth, kissing her daily
…and how warm that unfailing embrace must feel.
I wonder if the plants miss the sun in the dark of winter as much as I miss your obnoxious laugh in the silence of night.
To the man who describes himself as a broken-hearted hero,
I thought love was jealous, fragile, and painful. I thought everyone who loved deeply, did so complicatedly.
Since you, I’ve discovered love through the purest of sources: friendship and kindness.
The kind of love that makes me feel seen. The kind of love that makes me feel heard.
It’s that kind of familial love I didn’t realize I already knew, and had no idea I would someday gain even more of.
Because of what I’ve learned since you, I was ready for him. To see him. To hear him. To love him.
I’m thankful for where my path has brought me. I hope you can say the same.
The confident queen who walked away
You took my compliment as an insult, and for that I must explain: when I say I love you the way I love women, it’s the highest compliment I can offer.
I know these women.
I know their hearts.
I trust their intentions.
I trust their judgement.
Telling you I love you the way I love my women, it says
I know you.
I know your heart.
I trust your intentions.
I trust your judgement.
The men in my life come and go. Though I hold their friendships dear to my heart, the ties always tend to fade.
The women, they’re for life.
Pick any one of them, and I can honestly say there will never be another her.
Just as there will now never be another you.
I tell you I love you the way I love my women, because it’s honest and because it’s true.
And guess what…she LOVED it.
“FLUID is a gritty interactive novel that explores the nature of free will, through both the large story of a cosmic battle between good and evil, and the small story of two teenagers yearning for connection in a greedy, manipulative world.”
Have you ever read a book and forgotten that it’s not real life and you don’t actually know the characters? …you’re basically Gilmore Girl level acquainted with the characters, and you’re rooting for them/with them?
That’s how “fluid” was for me, and like all things I’m obsessed with…I share it with the masses! I’m not going to go into too much detail, because the author does a much better job at summarizing it than I ever could.
It’s an adult interactive book, so check it out on a digital platform (iBooks, nook, etc.) I also highly recommend you head over to his website. You can get more information about it there.
I have read it three times and I’m consistently in love with the content in this book… It’s a must-read!
Oh, and just as a fantastic side note: you can stalk the author on Instagram (I already do, regularly): @TravisSentell -not only is he a phenomenal writer, but he takes beautiful photos of his travels! Oh, and he’s a total silver fox with gorgeous blue eyes…so there’s that. 😉
To Be Continued.