Chris P. Bacon now has her own “corner” on Basic&Bipolar. Find more of her thoughts under Food&Feelings in the main menu.
I would like to take this time to give you a little history on myself and why this section is titled “Food and Feelings.” Apart from the fact that I love food and I have a ton of feelings that accompany my relationship to food, the struggle bus that I’ve been riding on has lasted much longer than 21 days, which they say can apparently “fix” my shit.
For the majority of my life I’ve been what some would call “curvy”. I’m 5’4″ and if we’re putting numbers on things, at my best I’ve weighed around 140. At my worst, my number has been around 180, which is the current mile marker my struggle bus is stopped at. And over the past 3 years or so, my number has literally gone up and down in every which way between. Currently, I have G boobies. Yes, that is an actual size in the bra department. On a positive note, I like to own that shit… and when people ask “what size ARE you???” My response goes like this: “I’m a Gee.” (Gee as in Gangsta – but no one has to know I mean it in that sense.) But when it comes to the lower portion of my body. I can’t remember the last time I fit into pants or shorts that were sized as a single digit. I rock those 10s, 12s, 30s to 33s. I get that butts are “in” now (side note to thank Kim K and Nikki…) But in REALITY, because we all know their asses don’t live in our world, I’d have to be doing 100+ squats per day to get on their level. Or just have a really good plastic surgeon. And I really don’t have the time, energy, nor the money for that. Anyways…
The hardest part for me has been finding that medium where I look and FEEL great, where I’m choosing healthy foods AND foods that fill my soul, where I’m being physically active AND getting my lazy in, and most importantly where I’m HAPPY with the choices I’m making. I understand that any change you want to make in life all begins with the choice to do so. However, its not as easy as flipping a light switch and it takes a lot longer than 21 Days to “Fix”.
-Chris P. Bacon